Portals
little stream of consciousness and musings on Virgo energy
If you like writings and ramblings of the occult, healing generational trauma, and prose on tarot and niche interests, this is the place for you. Yes, I’m a sag stellium. - Cat
I’ve always regarded my possessions as sentient. My mother is a genius at creative play and I credit much of my imagination to her. She taught me my toys had feelings. Once Pixar rubbed it in with the Toy Story franchise, it resulted in a storage unit full of toys + dolls from our entangled lives that both of us couldn’t bear to part from. Never mind that I don’t even WANT my own children.
I am in my bedroom in Philly, I’m 29 and it’s a Mars Day. Tuesday. My day. I was born on a Tuesday. 12. 22. 92. TWOSDAY u get it. I’m surrounded by the cat and a horrific amount of trinket boxes.
I’m trying to clear the clutter from my life. The Sun has entered Virgo.
Virgo to me represents the ways we help ground and serve ourselves and our community. It’s analytics and (rly fucking boring) routine. My ex trying to one up me in critique as foreplay, but actually getting horny from label makers. The collected rage + chaos of the Gone Girl “It Girl” monologue. Dark wood because it’s pretentious. Binging refrigerator stocking tik toks. Realizing mentally high maintenance ppl exist. The twin flame who broke my heart. Androgynous mercurial energy, Beyoncé level storytelling. The devil in the details.
This year is my 6th house profection year. As I leave my twenties and all I knew behind I’ve thrown shit at the wall to see what sticks. 2022 has felt like unlocking a safe and hoping the combination is right.
I have one attempt left, but I finally reached the satisfying “click” into place, before a door is open to an unknown portal.
My possessions are portals to me. Of time, space, a memory I want to save, a vibe I want to live inside of.
I’ve lived in many worlds and many lifetimes. I’ve written manuscripts in my mind and created art you’ll never see and taken risks you wouldn’t believe.
“Of course it’s real Harry if it’s happening inside your head.” - Dumbledore Deathly Hallows.
Portals can be found everywhere. When you drive through an area with only fog in one spot, that can be a portal. You may even experience a bit of dizziness, heightened senses and a stillness that indicates it’s time to tune in.
What portals call to you? What objects and spaces cause time to slow down?
BTW, you can find me on a regular basis over on WINNO which I am loving! I have both a free tier and a paid option available because fuck social media algorithms.
