“I love you, but I also love me.”
I said that to someone this week. There’s so much I have to apologize for, but it turns out a lot of it is to myself. Kendrick dropped his project (FINALLY) and I locked myself in my room, put headphones in to grieve different and be with his words. When I got to Mirrors I felt that knowing that you find when you sit deep with your bones. The eclipse is challenging me to choose me not just when it’s convenient and “open in my schedule” or on payday….but now. In this moment. Through honesty, through a deeper breath, making time to eat, setting the boundary, telling your friend you need to hear that you’re doing a good fucking job cuz it doesn’t feel like it.